June 2, 2010 In Uncategorized

Alaska Or Bust

I have decided I am going to drive to Alaska this summer.

Yep, in my car that needs new tires and an alignment that I can’t afford. I will leave from the East coast and drive clear across the country.
Why would I want to do this?
1.) Because I want to.
2.) Because I can.
3.) Because I belong on the road, especially in the summer.
4.) Alaska is the only state I have not spent time in. I’ve waited 8 years for #50 and I am using it as a good excuse for a kick off to my project.
5.) I’m turning 32 this summer. I refuse to be turning 33 next summer and still not doing what I am great at and using my talents to the best of my ability.
#6.)…and MOST importantly put best by a friend who sent me a one line email this morning:
Life is to short to be sitting behind a desk fighting for someone else’s cause. (How can i argue with that truth?)
How am I going to get to Alaska? Especially when my current full-time salary doesn’t even pay my monthly bills and I have an apt. and all the rest of that adult stuff?
1.) Very strategically and carefully. Sure, I just decided this last night, but this project has been in the works and in my head for years. The timing is now. It’s on.
Please stayed tuned for the launch of a new website, good stories and news. I will be hitting you up for support too. (Hey- there had to be a catch, right?:)
In August, on the 16th year anniversary of my best friends death this year, I’m not going to be talking to the clouds, promising them I am “going ” to do this project and live the life I know I want, like I have the past 15 years. I’m actually going to be doing it. 
The alternatives to not doing this project, are the sleepless nights I have been having, the frustrations of feeling empty, lack of passion that’s been lurking around me because I’m not living what I know I want, wasting that full-of-life spirit of 3 (yes- I am including myself) and giving up the Blue Lollipop Road forever. I have to be honest and tell you all, I’ve often considered just letting “it” all go lately out of pure exhaustion. The towel has been there so many times screaming for me to throw it in.
Thankfully after some tears and a conversation I had yesterday, the bonfire of massive flames finally lit under my ass and I told the towel to screw off. 
There will be no towel throwing happening on my Blue Lollipop Road. Not in this lifetime.
Here’s to finally being ready, fully understanding where my heart, sense and passion lie, and actually living what I love. I AM going to live my truth, do amazing work, and inspire others to do the same for themselves. I hope you’re all with me on this one. 
Can you believe the journey gets even better than this?! WAHOO!!!
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May 30, 2010 In Uncategorized

Carpe Diem Contest

I know I am way behind on posts. I owe an answer to my Earth Day experiment in how you can save money and the earth on your daily drink purchases. I have space saved to write about my long weekend trek to Boone/Blowing Rock, NC. I have TONS of great stories and photos from my trip back to my home state of Vermont last week (which for the first time ever I oddly enough found myself scratching my head saying to myself; Why don’t I live here?

The above stories will come at some point.

For this morning though, no stories, just me sitting happily sipping my coffee, in the sunshine, looking at the ocean with a perfect view from the gorgeous beach house I am staying in. Just thinking about where I want to take this after coming up on 2 years and 600 posts. I would like to devote time, energy, and more into making this into about 5 different projects. This blog has allowed me to find my voice, myself, and what directions I want my life to move in. That has been completely unexpected, totally awesome, and perhaps that in itself means that’s all this was ever meant to be. I joke regularly with people, that if everyone had a blog and ranted/shared in the most honest ways they could- all or a lot of what was on their minds; therapists would be out of business and we’d all understand ourselves better. 
I can look back and see my writing patterns, what people I know and perfect strangers relate to, what I love, what’s interesting and important to me and what pisses me off, who I love and why I love them, my habits good and bad, and the “constants” that through moves, break-ups, new jobs, new friends, new discoveries and huge changes- are always there and never seem to fade. These are great things to be able to see and realize.
I am so thankful for you for reading, amazing friends and family, good times and ones that put me through the ringer, and all the lessons I have learned from writing here. I am beyond grateful for this thing called a blog on this thing called the world wide web, which has allowed me- through typing keys on a laptop, to find out what I’m great at, what I suck at, and those “constants” in my life. I realize today, so much more of who and what I want to be than I ever dreamed of a couple years ago. 
I have never been happier in my life. How cool is that?
So I am not catching up on the stories I have promised or the many things I’d like to share from my notes and photos quite yet. Today, just a note of thanks and I hope to share much more soon and continue for a long time with you all. If I disappear from time to time, it’s only because I am out and about having a carpe diem contest with myself appreciating every ounce of today more than I did yesterday. I used to not know how to do that fully, so I’m making up for lost time.
I hope you all are seizing the day too. If you are I will see you there.
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May 26, 2010 In Uncategorized

Capital Veggies

I love when I get links, letters, texts or any form of communication from friends with a “Hey! I thought you’d like/love/get a kick out of this!”

Here’s one I got from a friend last night. He never forgets me even though he now lives far away in Wisconsin.
Another story that goes to prove you don’t need much space to grow healthy goodies. Even smack dab in the middle of a city- we can all be farmers if we want to!
Thanks BW!
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